I’ve been drawing a lot lately and I started to use A3 papers, experiment with more mediums, techniques and styles. To me art is always a search. It’s an expression of whatever I’m feeling and experiencing at the moment and a search of how to express that. The more I think of this the more I get the feeling that nothing I do is an end result, but an inevitable side effect of my attempts. Sometimes it can look as an end result, but really it is more like an incomplete state of something filled with imperfections. In an interesting way because of this I see beauty in everything that has been created with a good spirit and motivation regardless of technical skills or actual characteristics of the creation.
I am turning 25 next month and I totally did not expect it to make any impact on me, because nothing is really changing in any aspect of my life. I plan to continue the same things I am doing right now, maybe dig a little more into them. But it just got me, I felt this change in my perception and self-image. Nothing changed in my way of thinking, but my focus shifted from self discovery to actualization.
I don’t know how but Lena Dunham is always telling exactly the story I need at the moment. I love how she is showing everything that is wrong with ourselves and our lives but at the same time she is making me so excited about living.
I was watching this documentary about American painters in the 40’s to 70’s, Painters Painting (1973). I’m interested in this time period for some reason, especially in the art that was created.