thankful for friends

thoughts

I had a thought lately when I was walking around in the city with someone I got to know not so long ago whom I think we could became good friends with.
It was a rather melancolic feeling about how he will never know me, he would only know his perception of the version of myself when I’m around him.

And this is sad in a way because this means that noone really knows me. But at the same time thinking about all my versions created by the presence and perception of all the people who are close to me makes me feel joyful. I think it’s fascinating, without them these versions which are very much part of me wouldn’t exist at all.

trying to understand beauty and ugliness

art, design, thoughts

As a side effect of being an artist and a designer I’m constantly looking at my surroundings, making observations.

Sometimes I spot objects, buildings, clothes or natural elements that are mesmerizing, I enjoy looking at them trying to understand their beauty. And other times when I’m in an enviroment that is poorly designed I feel so uncomfortable I just want to leave.

This is making me think: what makes something beautiful and what makes something ugly? Of all physical objects why do we find certain combination of colors, materials and textures appealing and others repulsive?

Right now I think beauty is the number of good choices that has been made in order to create an object. The amount of time, work and thinking done while designing.
This is why nature is beautiful, because it is created by many good choices during evolution.

The other aspect that makes something either beautiful or ugly to me is how much truth is captured in that object. Is it telling something honestly about ourselves, our feelings and the world we live in?

thoughts on love

thoughts

I was thinking a lot about love and how we love people lately. It is so important part of our lives and it is such a complex topic. I feel like we can experience honest love and connection in so many ways and it is different for every person what love really means to them.

I think it’s something every person needs, but in his/her unique way.

What makes me a little sad, that I feel like there is still a standard image in front of us and anyone who wants to experience connection different from that in any way has to make so much more effort exploring his/herself thoughts on this topic, finding the courage sharing this with other people and just generally deal with difficulities which comes from living a life which is different from what this standard idea is.

What I find really strange is that I see so many people who doesn’t think about what love and sexuality means for them, just automatically goes with a standard idea. I think that’s not a good thing, because even if you fit in in every way into this idea, you have to explore yourself and be aware of your individual thoughts and feelings on this topic.

What is important is that every type of honest and caring love is great and should be celebrated. Let’s be open for each other’s concept of love, listen and understand each other.