I tried out working as a figurant, it was a scene in the movie The song of names, the scene took place in the 50s, so we got makeovers and costumes, which was so fun. I love movies so much and being part of creating one was really exciting.
So I thought I can deal with my traumas on my own.. for sure 😀 I always planned doing therapy at one point, but I didn’t think it was necessary right now.
But I got stuck with my healing so I went to see a therapist and it’s so awesome!!
In my particular situation I think I could figure out a lot of things on my own with online sources so I wasn’t missing any information, but counseling gave me something totally different I needed.
I could uncover my memories and be honest with myself and let out feelings each day on my own, but having a conversation with someone regularly gave me a lot of support and a space to express myself. It was great to talk to someone who understands the dynamics and consequences of childhood sexual abuse very well and many times when I expressed my thoughts and feelings about the abuse or about something in my life right now she gave me her feedback or opinion about it or she rephrased it in a way that made so much sense and helped me so much.
And it’s great to be in an environment where my specific issues are 100% understood and accepted, because generally in the world that’s not the case.